July 12, 2011

judge.

it amazes me how judgmental some people can be. 

from what you wear to how you talk to plain condescending rudeness that truly shows their colors. 

especially when these people are family. 

i suppose that is why i’d rather spend time alone. the stares the questions the condescending tones, i could do without those. the manner in which people are judgmental and try to put others down, its starting to get old. 

i suppose that is why i moved away to get away from this, but honestly why run from the people that are trying so hard to prove to everyone else that they are so much better when i have no desire to play their game. 

in my freshman year, someone told me, there is nothing more to life than making yourself happy, if people around you want the same it does not matter what you do or what you achieve as long as you are able to face the person you see in the mirror. 

personally i could stare at myself all day, and no i am not conceited nor do i have an egocentric personality, its just i have come to realize i am doing what i want, i do not have a rush to become “successful” in someone else’s eyes but rather enjoy my life. 

i would hate to wake up 6 years from now to realized i have lived out everyone else’s expectations and dreams but my own.

so i politely say  fuck you, and please excuse me if i do not have one fuck about what you think nor what you wish to say i am living for me

unfortunately, i am prohibited to say these to such people in which it would apply. something about being “lady-like” and “respectful” 

but tell me why respect those who do not respect you? 

okay, thank you.